ch ch ch changes

i used to think that when i had a baby, i would want them to stay tiny forever and ever. i thought that i would be saddened by them growing older. that i would want to hang on to the newborn stage.
but honestly, now that i have a baby, and i see how she is changing and how she is growing, i am loving every single stage. in fact, i am so looking forward to all her growing and changing!
i loved when she first smiled at me, because she recognized my face and knew me as her mother. that was a moment i remember waiting so impatiently for. and of course it came, and it came fast. but you know what? every time she smiles at me now, even though its often, it still feels like it did that very first time.